Friday, August 30, 2013

(2) current situation~

hey there!! boy, I really should go sleep now since it's almost 12AM but, I wanted to update you guys on how I'm getting on with life so far! Well, firstly, my friends are coming back to me and things are starting to shape up! Like I've mentioned in my previous post about my friend, yeah I'm still feeling glad and light-headed about our status, I mean I've been dreaming of the day that we would become friends again?? But anyway, this is one of the many things I'm grateful for this semester. Secondly, it's my grades! By the grace of God, really, my grades have been miraculously improving by themselves and my progress report for this term (hopefully) would look good and stay that way. After all my hardships and the things I've gone through,I'm still amazed at how far I have come, and really, it was a tough, yet fulfilling journey as I managed to foster new bonds with new people, find new identities, improve my grades, and to break away from some of my bad habits as well. 
On the other hand, the september holidays are just round the corner and we only have like 3 days of lessons next week! I can finally take a break from school, but not really, I have to go back to school almost everyday for lessons T____T My exams are just a few weeks from now (less than 20 days oh my) and I'm not ready at all, I'm not even prepared, but at least I'm halfway there! 
I've FINALLY watched the recent exo happy camp episode and it was so hilarious HAHAHAHA but my biases were so cute there i mean they deserve to get a punch in the face (especially u byun baekhyun; you watch out) hHEHEHEHEHEHE MY NEXT GOAL IS WEEKLY IDOL (both of them; see this is the life I have now -- nothing).
Ok so I'll have to go now, I'll see you guys maybe tomorrow or the day after~ 


kaibaek acting cute (i'm going to grab my hammer to hit them)

bel 

Thursday, August 29, 2013

(1) hey there!!

hello there! i deleted all my previous posts because I had found them really lame and basic. Well, right now, I'll be working on this blog, to make it look even prettier, although I'm quite satisfied with how it currently looks! it's exactly 1:30AM now in the morning and jEEZ i just finished my CME BMA and it was so tiring! Finally, all my nights of staying up till this late even after tuition, have been paid off and I can finally sleep earlier tomorrow and whoop whoop it's my last session of cca before the suspension tomorrow so that's one good thing. Well, I have a chinese and english test tomorrow yayerz. 
Recently, I've just got back with an old friend! Although I doubt very much that we'll be able to go back to what we were before, but, at least we aren't arch enemies any more. I don't even know how she's doing in her studies because it's just too awkward to talk, but it's okay, I'm really just satisfied with the fact that she took my apology so easily and (for once) reciprocated my actions, so I'm just elated with just that bare minimum. I know that I shouldn't, and I wasn't going to, push her too much because it'll just end up like last year, me sticking too much on her and after that, realizing that she was trying to shake me off because I was being annoying, (don't worry, I could feel it too, but idk I just went ape shit and decided to go ahead and continue what I was desperate okay) and we fought again and never ever talked till now. I was thinking about this the other day, and I thought, w o w, we haven't talked for a year already, and now, things are finally beginning to shape up for me, especially after my mediocre period, that was just a horrible experience, but luckily I've managed to pull my socks up and I'm on the right track again!! Okay this is getting awkward, I mean what if she doesn't feel the same way........ then all this happiness is only on my part, which I hope it isn't.......... I really should start talking to her more (ok maybe not) and saying hi to her whenever we see each other, because the situation now is even more awkward than before we made up /covers face/ but it's okay!!!!!!!! i'll just take things as they go by and won't force my way through ever again (lesson learnt ; it's a really grave mistake, don't ever do this to your friends).
If you may or may not have realized, I've decided to use my "formal" tone here, so no excessive "hehe" 'hahaha" or what nots, they seem childish here (i just realised) and I can only afford to be this childish on twitter because nobody really cares about me there heh. 
Lastly, I managed to trade my chanyeol photocard to jongin baby <3333 oh god I don't know whether I have mentioned this or not, but I bought 6 growl albums (crazy huh, i know i k n o w) and like my first 2 were successful because I got my two biases- baekxing, so now I'm trying to look for the hunhan photocards while trading my jongdae and zitao photocards but anyways- it'll work out soon enough. 
ok i should probably go sleep so adios!! 
please expect my next post~
                      here is some baek to kill you while I'm at it (POLARLIGHT UNNIR I LOVE YOU)

bel