ラジカル: 2013

Hi there

Well, today marks the last Sunday of the year 2013! It also marks the last time I'll be seeing some of the people I really love and have grown really close to over the years. It was the last regionals that I had with my dearest cell leaders (besides Rachel) and Qiyi, together with several other people who are either transferring regions or actually leaving the ministry to go to YAYP (Young Adults).

It's been a bittersweet day for me since I had to say my goodbyes to my dearest cell leaders- Athena and Grace, who took me for two long years! Both of these girls have impacted my life so greatly over the past two years and I honestly can't ask for better leaders than the duo! They actually know me better than I know myself at times and they are always there for me whenever I need them. I really admire their faith and love for the Lord, and I hope to be like them someday (which I will I mean it's in a year's time). Although I may come off as a nonchalant, playful, noisy and funny girl in cell, who's always teasing everybody else, I really really love my leaders and cellmates a lot! <3 They've seen me through my darkest moments and my happiest, and honestly, I really can't ask for a better cell than Soldiers. My leaders have been there to strengthen my faith and to keep me on track with my spiritual walk, which I need at times. I love how my cell knows all my weird antics and makes fun of me like ALL THE TIME but kudos to them, I managed to open up to everyone else, and changing into a better person- one who is more outspoken and friendly! I'm not really good with words but I'm just going to miss them so so so much, you can't imagine how much <///3 Thanks for also putting up with my never-ending nonsense, but hEY you guys love my nonsense right! I'm going to miss having awkward cells with my leaders and there wouldn't be anyone talking AND YOU CAN LITERALLY HEAR THE AIRCON VENTS RUNNING HAHAHAHA. The way that my cell pokes fun of me is sort of endearing yet hilarious, like making fun of how white my feet are and others! I'm going to miss all these jokes, but I'm sure that there will be more to come soon with my new cell leaders next year! (our cell is going to be chaotic and high every single week, you can bet on that). I'm actually glad that Rachel is still my leader since we've bonded quite a bit over the year though she only came in at the start of the year!<3 She's still a bully and an idiot though, but I love her like a lot HAHAHA I still hope her fingernails and diamonds or whatever that's on her nails, would drop off in her sleep, or maybe even falling into the toiletbowl someday or choking in her sleep (oh okay I'm sorry; no violence here)
My dear dear leaders, I don't even look at you guys as leaders, but rather friends! I know some of the problems that some of you may be facing or have faced, but be rest assured, that you are not a failure at your job!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You did a really really great job at handling us and preparing lessons for us to hone our faith and bonding within the cell!!!!!!!!!!!! I remember fondly how I warmed up to Athena first because we were related in a way like a senior-junior kind of relationship and my friendships with the other cell mates also had grown like the ones whom I'm closer to like Debs (who's going to be my leader next year o god) , Darylene (my dear dear friend) and Rachel! <333 I'll never forget you leaders or the memories that we've forged together during our friendships! <3333333
Grace my dear, you have been such a sweetie and I can;t thank you enough for constantly watching over me and for understanding my ////pain//// in my love for kpop and my problems as well! You're always the first one to notice that something's up with me, and I really appreciate this aspect of you! <3 You'll do a wonderful job at RL-ing for H&M! Stay pretty like you always are and get a boyfriend who loves you for who you are! <33
Athena my cUTIE, don't ever look down upon yourself like how you were a """bad leader'''', which you totally weren't! You make a great leader and I'm sure of it! You're always making us laugh and I always poke fun at you but hey, don't take my teasings to heart ok! Grow taller, drink more milk, play more basketball but please stop getting blacker, I'll check your skin tone again in a few months when I see you again! (hEHEHEHEHE) Wear dresses more because you honestly do look pretty in them! <3
Rachel my annoying idiot????? HAHAHA Why haven't you dropped into a toilet bowl yet or fallen off your bed yet or get upskirted again or grown bald yet???? It's been a pleasure to have met you, and I've always wanted to be close and bonded to such a person like you (bc full of swag; you know what forget that I said that) and you're so funnayyyyyy??!?!??!?!?!??!?!?!?! I love your vocals and how gay you are, like me. We definitely need to go out shopping/studying again! (Plan a holland v sb date after school soon hehehehe) And I'll see you next year, be prepared to idk die with me wink wonk stay prettz my dear one <333
Yeappppppp dedications aside, I would want to wish Athena and Grace, a sad goodbye! <///////3 I promise to greet you guys and to give you gusy my bear hugs whenever I see you okay! <333333 You'll be dearly missed by me and Soldiers! Too bad our item wasn't as tear-jerking but it was quite realistic wasn't it! :----)) I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU GUYS MUA MUA MUA MUA
bye xoxo

Athena my cutie!

RACHOU!!?!?!??

my darling grace <3333

qiyi have fun in jedi alright! <333333 stay in contact xoxo

sis glads T____T

why am i even friends with him (but bye bryan :------(((()

T____T

"soldiers love you!"

my prettz girlies

my gay-ass friends, everyone

I've collected my moonstrukk photobook (by mrdestiny) yesterday and it certainly did leave me awestruck and numb everywhere after unboxing it. Mr Destiny is no doubt my favourite jongin fansite, apart from OAOKAI, code black and others! <3 I had tried opening the tin case of photocards yesterday at tonkichi in front of my mom and when I opened it I was greeted with this

And then I told her "Mom I can't do this, not here, not now" before I lost control HAHAHAHA

When I got home, I immediately opened it and I was shaking while opening everything and there was even an L-folder included (great something nifty that I can use) and a card holder! The contents were overwhelming and too overbearing for my liking since there was just so much eye contact in the photobook, the photocards and the dvd itself. It took months for this baby to arrive, but when it finally did, it definitely didn't disappoint me at all. I was whatsapp-ing sheerong while I got to the better part of the dvd, (well the whole disc itself was a killer so I can't really say much) and I was legit dying because kim jongin's perfection engulfed me like a raging storm, I couldn't even control myself or my feels HAHA I can't remember what I was saying or doing at the time to be honest (oops) I'll bne posting some of the edited pictures that I've taken from the photobook down below so please anticipate~

Moving on, I'm starting my reading craze-slash-spree yet again, and when I start, there's no stopping I guess. Sheerong has kindly lent me some really nasty books like divergent, mitch albom's books and a few others! I had also managed to get my hands on some great and trendy titles like percy jackson (heroes of olympus), the mortal instruments series, more than this (the cover's really pretty I swear), and I dug out my unfinished john green books like "an abundance of katherines", "looking for alaska (what I'm currently reading)" and "paper towns"! Although I haven't actually got to like 1/4 of "the fault in our stars", but i couldn't really identify with the story so that'll take me a longer time to take an interest in reading it HAHAHA and I found a book "fangirl" oh my god I think that this book will be the most epic thing I'll ever be reading because I can really relate to it (since I'm a fangirl myself) and the antics of the characters are the same as everyone else I know! Lots of other people have recommended this book to me so I think it'll be pretttttty good! Ah jennifer echols has been my favourite author of all time, I always always always look out for her publishes and her books are just so good and once I pick them up, I .....can't.....seem.......to........put.......them.....down.......yes they're that nice! "such a rush" is her latest work and I haven't gotten down to reading it just yet. I've been too caught up in my fangirl life and exo to actually have the time or mood to be reading such thick books, and now that I'm a few days away from being sec 4, I need to get things done and my priorities straight. The amount (or rather mountain) of books on my dresser is rather intimidating and hopefully, I'll be able to finish reading them soon enough.

Hohohoho all these things have been like a christmas gift to myself (plus my polarlight and babylion calendars that I'm going to be getting tomorrow and the others that are on their way here) and it's been a fruitful December indeed! xoxo