Turning older would also mean making the right choices. Recently, a person has been guiding me through this period and has helped me realize something. I have found out where I am actually supposed to head to after o's, if I want to live that ideal lifestyle of mine when I grow up. This would also mean that I wouldn't be with my circle of friends any more when I move up after graduation. Well okay let me just say where I'm planning on heading to- SAJC/CJC/MI. Well these are the three most ideal JCs that I would want to go to next year and after sitting for o's. I've actually re-evaluated the pros and cons of going to poly and JC and actually weighed everything out to be tantamount to where I actually was originally in a denial state- JC aka a hell hole. NP may be my dream school and all, but come to think of it, going to a good local university is my actual and ultimate goal, thus, JC is the route to go for me. I've even fully given up on kpop for these months till after o's because I really do need to focus on my studies to get what I want. I'm even scrapping most of my tuitions (due to reasons which I shall not disclose on a public domain) to focus more.
Many may mock or even copy (lol) me for the fact that I'm heading to JC, but guess what, you're not going to affect me or my goals. You can go kiss my ass.
I'm glad that my mother is there for me 26/9, to guide me and to provide an immense amount of emotional support for me, in my decisions. "A mother is like your best friend. You only have one mother, treasure her before it's too late." People often don't know how much I love my mom, and to the point that they would dismiss the idea of a mother and daughter sticking like glue to each other. But I beg to differ. I can never ask for a better mother, who would tell me loads of crappy lame jokes, listen to my rants and never-ending complaints and to share most of my emotional anguish. She's the one who understands me the most and would share my doubts and worries with me.
May it be poly or JC or even ITE, I know that God has a plan in store for me and right now, I think it's in action. happy Easter once again to my Heavenly Father and to the one who has saved me from all my sadness and helps me overcome my pain, Happy Rising from the dead, Jesus. Thank you for everything thus far, please guide me through everything else and see me through my darkest times and needs.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XIAOLU ILY
Till next time,
bel
